Taking God up on an invitation can be difficult, but even when it feels easy the follow-through can be tough. Just two days ago I met with the local print shop I use to produce my planner and I was so excited I posted an Instagram Story. I shared that God spoke over me that I am creative because I was made in His image. I talked about how I never considered myself creative or artistic but in one day I would be working on a planner I created from scratch and new designs for my shop. When God reminded me of everything I would be creating in one day it hit me that I never considered myself to be creative because I was using a particular definition of creative and I simply didn’t fit it. At the close of the IG story, I encouraged anyone watching it to not look to others for validation when it comes to creative endeavors but to the One who calls us His own.
But today, I find myself comparing what I’ve got to others. I’m worried that people won’t know how to use the planner so I want to include some “how to” images or maybe even videos on here or YouTube. But when I start looking at the “how to” things others have shared I think mine just wouldn’t measure up. And that type of thinking opens the door to all kinds of doubt and second-guessing. Did God really call me to make and sell these planners? Should I really be trying to sell these to people outside of my circle of family and friends?
So here I am, working at my kitchen table struggling to trust that if I’m obedient to the call then God will bless me. And not with the things we’re told by the world are blessings. Isn’t that a trip that we, as children of God, can easily get caught up in thinking God will bless us according to the world’s definition of being blessed? When I say God will bless me when I’m obedient I’m referring to the things only He can give – joy, peace, freedom, patience and all the other Fruit of His Spirit.
Why am I sharing this instead of working on the planner? Real talk – I’m waiting on my Creative Cloud to update and when I started to throw an internal fit I got honest and recognized it was God allowing me the time and space to share this. If God has called you to something trust that He will provide what you need. What you put out will be what God intended for you to put out. It may not “measure up” to what others have put out. Cool. Create it anyway. How you produce it or share with people may not “measure up” to others’ platforms or ways of sharing. Cool. Share it anyway.